Waking up from the mind f--k

 The last few years have been trying, especially these last almost two years. Eye opening and clarifying on how I view our society and some personal relationships. Its sick how much we hold each other back and how it's the ones you love will be the ones who let you down in critical times. Yet they show right back up like nothing happened demanding more and trying to keep you in a box.

Especially in my experience being an artist/illustrator/storyteller. Count your blessings if your family has your best interest. If they don't , keep moving and hold your own. Some wise folks years ago told me to go my own way after art school, at the time it only worked for me to go back home and do the "right" thing. That next few taught me that it's the ones you love who hurt you most. Do not underestimate the pettiness and bitterness that people hold in there heart. They will try to take away your hear and soul.

Luckily I have been able to hold my own and these last couple years have just dropped the load of giving a shit about what those who claim to love me expect. I should have done this years ago in hindsight. I think I am wiser and certainly able to handle my own. Pushing myself into my art and making what I can and want of life. Here is some recent works. Planning to make more regular updates.

A cool night near the end of this hot year 2020

 Finally updating my blog after more than a year. Still in Melbourne but not working currently, due the pandemic. Tough to find work, had one interview that did not go any where after one actual day on site. Apparently I was good but not a match. a blow to my ego, a week after my birthday. Doesn't help how I think of things in some ways but makes me that much more focused on my own work. 

A year of loses of way too many people from this pandemic. Yet I keep running into people not taking it seriously. A few related to me, people I have bent over backwards for. Yet cannot for this, this shit is serious. Been through too much struggle and development over these last two years especially mostly on my own. Grinding and building myself back up from a very dark time.

Life is precious despite the horrors and obscenities we witness. Believe me, when I didn't know if i was going to see the morning at one point. Seeing the sunlight gradually warm the colors of the trees in the parking lot and hearing the birds song hit me. 

Any how enough gripping, times are hard and so much is still ahead of us. Not the time to quit being vigilant.

Here's some of that work. 

One year later...almost

Been a while since my increasingly infrequent updates. Moved out of Orlando since then after a health scare due to toxic job place, both mentally and physically. Moved to Melbourne/Palm Bay, got my own place and also a nice little car of my own. Work as a graphic artist doing wide format printing but also screen printing and sign making. Working like tasteful brute but doing better than last year and to think of it the years before. Have not scanned in any of the year so far work I realize but still making that pen and brush (including the stylus) speak. Daily update can be seen at www.instagram.com/kevin_m_russell_art .

August reigns

Another and the last month of summer has gone by and it has been interesting as usual in this thing we call life. Still getting on my art and grind to mae this life a creative one and enjoy myself from time to time. Yet as it is when you are building something times can be trying. A few pages of recent drawings and such.

Quest, challenges and such.

Finally updating after a long hiatus. Not from creating art that is but basically updating my instagram and tumblr far more often. Also dealing with life drama and such, especially with last month here in Orlando with the shooting.

Such horror happening close by has cemented my view of the uncertainty of life and that I cant settle for the 9-5 grind which is becoming old fashioned and for me very stifling and unhealthy. It is far more infuriating when you have to deal with needs less drama, egos and basically controlling nutters. I shall see what this month will round out as far as my personal progress, times for taing it easy and relaxing are over. I got art to create and stories to share. including a few scans of fairly recent drawings and such. kmrussellart.tumblr.com is where more frequent...much more frequent updates can be seen.

Hairy March

So much for my plans to update at least once a month but I have been busy since my last update with life and art or just life in general since art is a part of life. I have started a new job and it is pretty nice compared to many other gigs I have had. Interesting crew of folks who are all wonderfully interesting in a way I enjoy.  See how things go there as far as work and personal life in general.

This has been a progressive year so far since I have been coming to terms and dealing with a few matters, figuring shit out and becoming more comfortable with aspects of myself despite the fuckery I have tolerated for far too long. It seems people respond to me in positive ways more often than not, apparently I am doing what my mom before she passed said I should do which was to go out into world and shine. Any how on to some scans from my recently finished sketchbook as I am still pursuing my art and story work in a hermetic ecstasy.